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I have had déjà vu, and also researched its connection to brain dysfunction. I have specific memories of it. None of them were disorienting or unpleasant. None of them involve a loss of the concept of time [neither does the blending of moments…in terms of what’s *actually* going on around you (not just the moments blending in your mind/internal experience)]. The blending of two+ moments….let’s just say it hits different than déjà vu. With déjà vu, what you are currently experiencing in one single moment feels like you have experienced before. The reaction to the blending of two+ moments is not a reaction to what you are *currently* experiencing (until you are in the context of the future moment…but even then…remembering your first experience of that moment…when you weren’t in its context yet…I mean…that’s not a normal memory to have!). You can very much tell the difference between what’s really happening *right now* and the blending. Grasping at different theories to explain it … that’s the legit (but in hindsight, understandable) crazy part. Stuff you were absolutely sure was delusional turns out to be part of a future moment (and sometimes not all that crazy in the context of their moment). I still have a lot of memories I am still pretty sure were delusional. I hope they stay that way, or their contexts prove them to be not all that crazy. When I experience their contexts, it reminds me nothing surprises God. But it also concerns me that a big shift is coming, and we’re not ready to process or respond to it. How will other minds handle it, if that’s how I handled it? I was never diagnosed with anything other than sleep deprivation-induced psychosis based on my own reported information during a check up with a family physician (humored my MFT dad despite wanting to avoid weird treatments if institutionalized), which held back most of what I was still struggling to describe to myself. I was not under the influence, nor was I prescribed any medication for the *symptoms* I divulged, and I never saw another doctor about it. And never saw an actual therapist. The craziest of the blending lasted a few months (gradually decreasing in volume) before I eventually learned how to slow it. The racing thoughts could be considered a symptom of mania…again…undiagnosed.
I called the rapid blending (end of 2005 into 2006, before I got a handle on it) the fiery whirlwind. I can see how others would label it purgatory. I was an atheist when it hit, and when I was a Christian prior to that, I was not a Catholic and did not believe in purgatory—and never felt “stuck in time”.
If scientists experimenting with time or black holes or AI could explain the blending… and why it was targeted at my experience so others were exempt … I’d still tell them they’d need God’s assistance to blend moments/experience from outside/beyond/before them. I am open to science having been able to send *information* between moments without actually changing anything. This was not that (and no - nothing changes…but that is not fatalistic…it’s all alive and cocreative).
TMI? lol
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Another name besides event horizon is veil.
An irony I just recently realized is they woo you away by whetting and feeding your Why? appetite, and then they insult you when you expect an answer that actually satisfies it. Edit: That, or they are trying to give you hints to solve the riddle because they don't want to spoil it for you.

To reiterate: I am one person on this board. I only post my own thoughts. I do not use anyone else’s username, and no one else uses mine. I used to be She(TM). God started bringing me back 9/22/05. If anyone intends things for evil, he can still use it for Good.
Also: Yes, I will marry you. Will you marry me? Don’t do it! It’s a trap! Let’s skip all that noise and be friends. I am not freaking joking. Change my mind. lol jk